My provider...

Psalm 91:4 — He will cover you with his feathers. He will shelter you with his wings. His faithful promises are your armor and protection. There is absolutely nothing to fear about tomorrow; for God is already there.

This verse has been on my heart for awhile for various reasons. Let me explain.......

In January, I was crunching numbers and trying to figure out how our family was going to survive on a single, fixed income and pay a mortgage when I started getting incredibly anxious. Every time I thought about our potential financial situation, I felt a huge lump form my throat. It took me a little while to realize that I needed to give the situation to God and chill out. So, I did, and then I stopped looking at homes on mls.ca and instead, focused on living on a budget and saving some money.

A month or so later, I was speaking with our realtor when she suggested looking at newer homes with legal basement suites. Eureka! A solution had been found.

A couple of weeks later I was lamenting to Nathaniel about the state of our mattress and trying to figure how much we would need to save to purchase a new one when I received a phone call a friend, asking us if we would like to have their FABULOUS king sized mattress and box spring! The company they had bought the mattress from was upgrading their mattress and didn't want the previous one back, so they offered it to us. I was THRILLED! You have to understand how awful our present mattress was. Most people are rather horrified when they learn that I purchased our queen sized foam mattress on the side of the road for 10.00$ It was actually a king sized mattress at the time but used an exacto knife to cut in down to a queen so that it would fit on our box spring (to put it mildly, it was a hack job). That was seven years ago. The mattress was quite old when we bought it and it hasn't improved over time. Picture a concave mattress with suspicious stains. Nathaniel despised sleeping on it, but I didn't mind that much. Truthfully, neither of us has slept a full night on it in months since we are both still camping out in our living room in our sleeping bags. Why, you might ask, well..... we sleep better when are not sharing our room with a sleep anarchist (our daughter Claire). Let's just say I am looking forward to her having a room of her own! But I digress..... oh yes, the mattress.... it is like sleeping on a cloud. I am not kidding. It is the  MOST amazing mattress I have EVER slept on in.my.life. Dead serious. I smile every time I pull back my covers and climb in.

The point of this post is to remind you that we don't need to strive, we just need to put our trust in the One who knows us more infinitely more than we could possibly imagine. It is an utterly wonderful thing, knowing that I can place my future, my family, my finances, and my marriage in God's hands and rest in the knowledge that He is in control and can see the "bigger picture".

Sometimes I caught up in trivial details, and I get anxious about the future, but then I remember how FAITHFUL and GOOD my God is and I can't help but relax. He always has my best at heart and he knows what I need. He is aware and interested in all the details in intricacies of my life. He knows my heart's desires, my fears, my deep dark secrets and He loves and adores me. Some may think that such a statement is lunacy, that such events are mere coincidence or even karma, but I attribute them to the hand of God at work. This kind of thing has happened WAY too many times to be anything other than the later. I can think of countless instances where similar things have happened. Jobs that landed in my lap when I needed them, money that appeared in my bank account when I was broke, a precious friend that appears to help me through lonely times, help from a perfect stranger in a foreign country, ......

He is there and He does care about your situation, whatever it may be. Give it to Him and watch Him be the amazing, loving, lavish God that He is.

Love Jocelyn