Sunday, June 19, 2016

Our walks


Our walks consist of....
 eyes searching for creatures, berries and bugs
fists clinging sweet peas and daisies
fingers pointing at diggers and slugs and bunnies
 mouths sampling cherries, thimble berries and dew berries
dirty boots marinating in some puddles and stomping in others
 skirts and hair fluttering in the wind
arms reaching for momma
tired feet dragging
 
 

These Days: June



Longing
to read "Raising Grateful Kids In An Entitled World" by Kirsten Welch.
She blogs over at We Are THAT Family"

Enjoying
the huge bouquet of hydrangea I picked the other day.

Wearing
salmon colored jeans from bootlegger, a white top with lacy cap sleeves from Winners, and a gold and pink necklace from Cayo.

Blog Loving
Ruffles and Light, Simply Rosie

Listening
 to anything by the band "Need To Breath".

Feeling
pretty proud of the fact that I canned 31 jars of cherries last week. Thanks for the help Jennifer!

 
Reading   

Planning
on being more prepared for our next camping trip
 
 Enjoying
planning myself a birthday party 

 
Daydreaming
about being a "proper" photographer someday and offering "life at home"  photo sessions 
 
Making
 lists and lists and lists

Eating
way too many cherries 

Struggling
to  hit my macros

Starting
to try carb cycling 

Thinking
 about what I want my life to look like and what I want to look like when I am 40

 
Attempting
 to stay on top of dishes with a broken dishwasher and children who eat nearly every hour.

 Watching
Downton Abby on Wednesday nights with a couple girlfriends

 

Wednesday, June 1, 2016

These Days: May


 
 
Wearing
my new colorful blouse and white jeans from bootlegger

Enjoying
 the necklace from stella and dot that my hubby got me for mother's day.

Looking
forward to going here in January for two weeks. EEEEEKK so excited
 
Loving
the fact that that Levi is potty training himself
 
Listening
to "Pieces" by Amanda Cook and "Anthem" by W.L.A.K

 Trying
to be more disciplined

Feeling
immensely proud of the fact that I am FINALLY back at my pre-pregnancy weight.
 

Reading   
National Geographic Travel magazine and "For Her Own Good: 150 Years Of The Experts Advice to Women" by Barbara Ehrenrich.
 

Daydreaming
about wearing a two piece bathing suit in Hawaii in eight months
 
Making
cards... lots and lots of cards while I watch TV with my hubby at night.

Eating
nectarines and cantaloupe

Drinking
 smoothies made with Vega Sport Protein Performance  powder and frozen fruit after workouts.

Starting
to make Kombucha on a regular basis
 

Wednesday, May 25, 2016

Stuff I loved in blog land


1) I love the concept of the book, "Just Between Us", that Elizabeth Kartchener blogs about over at her blog, Dear Lizzy.

"I have a stack of journals in my studio or night stand and wanted to share my favorite mom based ones I’ve loved over the years! Mostly because of the most recent one I was suggested by my friend Stephanie. I purchased it right then on Amazon and my girls have really enjoyed the experience so far. It’s called Just Between Us. It’s a mom and daughter journal developed by a mom and daughter duo. It’s a place where you can write to each other and she can ask me any question and I can share things with her too. ..... (read more)

2) Because I have actually done ministry in a strip club I found the article "I went to a strip club" from Just a Jesus Follower particularly interesting.

A while back I was asked by a group of pastor’s wives to go with them to strip clubs.
That sentence alone sounds strange. But hang with me.
At first I was a little hesitant. And not for reasons you might think.
I love people. Especially ones who are broken; it’s part of my calling. But, given what I’ve walked through, I know how fragile broken people can be.
And I know how insensitive the church can be.
And I was uneasy. But, these weren’t just any pastors wives. They had a vision...... (read more)

3) The article, "I'm not taking a break. I'm breaking" from the blog Scary Mommy resonated with me after the past two weeks I've had.

"It’s almost noon and I’m standing at the kitchen counter, where it feels like I’ve been all day, cutting up fruit for lunch. The FedEx truck is here. I forgot that the dogs were outside, and they’re giving the delivery man a less-than-warm welcome. In pajama pants and dirty hair, I run outside to shush the dogs and grab the package. My children, wearing a bizarre hodgepodge of dress-up clothes, squeeze past me to greet FedEx Guy..... (read more)
 

Sunday, May 22, 2016

Upside down love

 
Some time ago my girls spent the weekend with their Oma on the mainland. This meant that I got to spend a lot of uninterrupted time with Levi. One morning I was smothering him with kisses when I found myself saying "you are SO worthy of love". Immediately I sensed the Lord gently reminding me that everyone is worthy of love, not because of who they are or what they have done, but because He created them. I often find myself baffled by this. I find myself asking, "how can you love people who are hell bent on destroying other people's lives"? How?  Why are you so merciful to them? Why do you let them continue on their destructive path? 
 
Why? Because His love is upside down.
 
It is merciful. It is not based on emotion or works. It is not circumstantial or needy. It does not require reciprocation. It defies reason. It is abounding. It is perfect. It is relentless. It is baffling.
 
He is not an errant parent who is unaware of his child's actions. He is acutely aware, but extends His mercy and love nevertheless.
 
It is an upside down love and the most beautiful kind of love we can ever know.
 
A friend of mine recently shared a beautiful sermon on God's mercy. Afterwards, she had the lights turned off and played this beautiful, song called "Mercy" by Amanda Cook from the album Brave New World . Ever since she told me the name of the artist I have been playing her album on repeat. Here are two songs that have been  making my heart soar.

"Mercy"

  My past embraced
My sin forgiven
I'm blameless in Your sight
My history rewritten

You delight in mercy
Mercy triumphs over judgment

Oh Love, great Love
Fear cannot be found in You
There will never be a day
You're uncertain of the ones You choose

You delight in mercy
Mercy triumphs over judgment

So I will wake
And spend days
Loving the One
Who raised me up
From death to life
From wrong to right
You're making all things beautiful

You delight in mercy
Mercy triumphs over judgment



"Pieces"

Unreserved, unrestrained
Your love is wild
Your love is wild for me
It isn't shy, it's unashamed
Your love is proud
To be seen with me

You don't give Your heart in pieces
You don't hide Yourself to tease us

Uncontrolled, uncontained
Your love is a fire
Burning bright for me
It's not just a spark
It's not just a flame
Your love is a light
That all the world will see
All the world will see

You don't give Your heart in pieces
You don't hide Yourself to tease us

Your love's not fractured
It's not a troubled mind
It isn't anxious
It's not the restless kind
Your love's not passive
It's never disengaged
It's always present
It hangs on every word we say
Love keeps its promises
It keep its word
It honors what's sacred
'Cause its vows are good
Your love's not broken
It's not insecure
Your love's not selfish
Your love is pure

You don't give Your heart in pieces
You don't hide Yourself to tease us                       

 



 
 
 

Monday, May 16, 2016

Quote of the day


"Treat your child like a seed that came in a packet without a label. You can't tell what kind of flower you're going to get or in what season it will bloom. Your job is to pull the biggest weeds, provide sufficient food and water, and stand back and wait."

- anonymous educator from growingwildthings

Writing


My blog has been rather quietly lately. Why? Well, for a few reasons. Sometimes I go through these phases where I feel too private to share my heart. Other times I am frustrated that I do not have the energy or time to write something of substance so I choose not to share anything. Other times I can't string a sentence together to save my life. Lately I have been enjoying sharing beautiful quotes from #wildandfree.

I often find that my mind hums with beautiful words in the last, few, quiet minutes of the day, only to have them claimed by sleep. Then morning approaches and with it, a tidal wave of demands and time constraints. Sometimes, in the afternoon, when Levi is napping, I have enough headspace to write,  but I am overcome with guilt that I should be using my time to  clean or exercise. While I enjoy sharing the odd muffin recipe and photos of my life and children, I often long to share the deeper stuff the keeps me awake at night, and permeates my thoughts during throughout the day - my struggles, victories, challenges, frustration and discoveries. Sometimes I feel like I should keep my blog content "joyful" as the title of my blog is "A Joyful Life", but when I think about it, a joyful life is not a life void of conflict, sorrow and brokenness, it is a life lived with Christ.

At the moment Nathaniel and the girls are still sound asleep and Levi is enthralled with the hair dryer I just handed him. I am nursing a mason jar of piping hot earl grey tea and  wondering how much time I will have before Amelia wakes up and requests breakfast. I recently read a fascinating article by Kim Brooks called "A Portrait of the Artist As a Young Mom: Is domestic life the enemy of creative work?". It was funny, honest article about the challenges of trying to balance creative work with the needs of rearing children and how they are at odds with one another.

I don't profess to have any great skill in the writing department, but it is something that I enjoy doing. It not only helps me work through my issues, but also allows me to capture my musings in a concrete form that I can revisit later. It's probably the reason why I have diligently kept a journal since the age of seven. The act of writing, of weaving words together,  is not only therapeutic, it is creative and soul nourishing.

At any given time, have at least thirty or so blog entries that I have begun but failed to finish for one reason or another. I know that editing is an important part of the writing process but it a whole lot less fun than pouring thoughts onto a page.