Wednesday, July 14, 2010

Do you ever.....

Do you ever have days where you feel totally on top of things. Right now the dishes are done, the floor are clean (albeit temporality), there is a fresh pie cooling on the window sill, I worked out, put on make-up , brushed my hair, organized my week and am full of creative energy. Let me assure, this is not always the case. Most days I do crusty dishes in the morning, trip over all the clothes scattered all over the floor, tie my knotty hair in a bun and I go au natural - oh and eat too much chocolate. Motherhood has truly humbled me and for that I am thankful. I still have days where I am obsessed with having a "tidy" house (note that I didn't say clean), but I am realizing that there are many other things that are more important. I am growing to love being a "stay a home mamma", and I have to laugh at how far I have come from my "angry feminist" days. I love my "role" and I have found that it has brought me freedom I never knew existed. My life is not glamorous, but it is rich with the things that really count. My husband is honest, faithful, hardworking and handsome and my daughter makes my heart melt more and more each day. I still have days where I am on the verge of cursing and throwing a childish temper tantrum.... days where my daughter is a cranky tornado and my husband works non-stop, but thankfully, I am learning to relax even in those situations. As I am writing this, the valley below my home is burning and smoke is filling the evening sky. Nathaniel warned me that there would be the threat of forest fires this summer but I never expected them to be so close to home so soon. Seeing a fire mercilessly destroy everything in its path makes me think about what is most important to me. This evening I am finding myself glancing around my house and thinking "what will I take with me if we get evacuated in the next couple of hours"?

On a lighter note, these are a few things I am feeling thankful for today.......

1. My daughter's bitty pigtails

2. My tanned skin
3. The fact that my daughter is sleeping through the night (again)
4. Blueberries, raspberries and nectarines
5. The lovely wedding shower I attended this afternoon (baby free)
6. The fact that we will be going on holidays in a couple of days.
7. That my daughter still LOVES nursing!

8. This meal........

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